17, 21 September 2025
I left my friends party early because I just wasn’t getting along with the people there, they weren’t really my friends. I left with my boyfriend and we went back to his house, we kissed and touched each other but in the end I was drunk and tired and so we both just went to sleep. At 8:42 (he had a digital clock), I wake up and his hand is grabbing my chest, he’s awake and when he realises I’m awake he puts his hand between my legs and fingers me. I don’t give any signs of consent back and he knows I have a freeze response because I have told him, this freeze response is due to being previously raped. My lack of no is taken as a yes, and he alternates between fingering me, rubbing his dick between my thighs and jacking himself off. He eventually cums on my back, and when I start crying and asking for my clothes he refuses to give them to me immediately because he doesn’t want me to break up with him right there. He says he’s sorry, he begs me not to hate him. I left, walked home having not brushed my hair or my teeth. The Monday after I saw the girl whose party it had been and managed not to cry when she asked if I’d at least had a good time after I left.